Milestones

2019 – my year of acceptance

Hey guys, I pray you’re well? Before I get into what I wanted to share in this blog post, I just wanted to take the time to thank you. Thank you for taking the time to read my blog and follow and share the journey with me. The process can be (and has been) so hard at times, but your reads, likes and comments encourage me to keep pouring out when led and help me to remember that all I am going through is for a purpose. I find writing so therapeutic, and I pray that through what I share, you would be blessed also. 💕

So, 2019…

What a year it has been. I know Abba told me, at the beginning of January, that this year would be “different”, but I don’t think I expected it to be different in the area of SPIRITUAL WARFARE. The warfare this year has been real. The bouts of discouragement, disappointment and despair have honestly been greater than any I’ve ever experienced before. I am no stranger to spiritual warfare, but the internal attacks were what were so different for me this year. I am used to my situation / circumstances hitting me hard, but never have I experienced such emotional rollercoasters in single days. This year I would find myself waking up and the enemy would hit me HARD with feelings of hopelessness and discouragement, and then I would have to fight HARD to get myself back to a place of faith-filled expectation. Like, literally. In one day, I could find myself crying, saying, “Abba, why am I even here? How has my life even glorified You, Lord? You may as well take me now, Jesus!” to the other extreme of, “Yes Lord! You’re going to do everything You’ve promised me! You have such great plans for me! I am called and anointed for such a time as this!” – Honestly, it’s been so crazy! I’ve been somewhat like Elijah this year:

Then he went on alone into the wilderness, traveling all day. He sat down under a solitary broom tree and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life, for I am no better than my ancestors who have already died.” (1 Kings 19:4, NLT)

Abba is so faithful though. What I have also found (in retrospect) is that every time the enemy has attacked me and tried to get me to give up all hope, Abba has also used that time to bring further clarity to me and cause me to truly accept His calling with a greater level of understanding.

…When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the LORD shall lift up a standard against him. (Isaiah 59:19b, KJV)

To accept = to take or receive / to believe as true.

If there’s one thing I can say about 2019, it’s that I’ve gone through such an intense battle to accept in totality WHAT the Lord has called me to do, and HOW He’s called me to do it. I didn’t realise before, but my lack of full acceptance has played a big part in me not being able to fully embrace and appreciate the process Abba has me in.

Yesterday morning, I had another breakthrough though… I dare say the greatest one this year. What I share with you below, may seem simple to you, but I tell you it’s taken me a LONG time to receive it. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’ve known for a while now that the Lord is raising me up for 3 distinct ministries, but somehow, I had not fully embraced the kingship aspects that go along with these. In failing to fully accept both my kingship and priesthood, I was also hindering myself from receiving and appreciating my process in totality. All year I had struggled with what I call my “civil mandate” (below) due to this lack of acceptance. I knew that, at the end of last year, Abba told me that I was “emerging” in the area of my “social mandate”; however, because He had also led me into full-time entrepreneurship (since January 2019), I had not been sure whether I was also emerging in my “civil mandate” as well. I had battled with the fact that my financial situation was still abominable. How could He lead me into full-time entrepreneurship but still have me struggling financially? Was full-time entrepreneurship the equivalent of me moving from the prison to the palace or not? How could it be when my bank account has been far from thriving; in fact, it’s barely been surviving… It took me the WHOLE year to gain clarity into this, so I won’t labour the point, but in finally accepting and receiving both my 3-part priesthood (how I serve) AND 3-part kingship (how I make money), it has truly helped to bring me to a place of rest.


CROSS-CULTURAL MANDATE – PAUL TYPE / MISSIONS

Priesthood: Pura*T International (www.pura-t-international.org.uk

>> Kingship: Pura Track (www.puratrack.co.uk) <<


SOCIAL MANDATE – MOSES TYPE / MOVEMENT

Priesthood: Believers on Track (www.believersontrack.com)

>> Kingship: Torema Thompson (athlete) <<


CIVIL MANDATE – JOSEPH TYPE / MARKETPLACE

Priesthood: Torema Thompson (children’s author)

>> Kingship: Pura Track Fitness (www.puratrack.co.uk/fitness)


I struggled for most of this year because I couldn’t understand how I could be in “the palace” if I was still struggling financially and not seeing any fruit in the area of kingship – and the reality is, I wasn’t in the palace. At times, I had thought that perhaps Pura Track was my civil/marketplace ministry, but it is not. The truth is that Pura Track is simply equivalent to Paul’s “tent-making” business (Acts 18:3-4), i.e. it is a way Abba has given me to make money as I fulfil the cross-cultural ministry He has called me to; it is my trade

This is a wow moment for me because I can now fully accept that although, since last year, I have been “emerging” (albeit slowly 😅) in the area of my “Moses” ministry, I am yet to emerge in the areas of my “Joseph” or “Paul” ministries. In other words, I am still in the grave/cocoon in these areas

It’s taken me the whole year, but I’m finally accepting and receiving that Abba has given me a 3-part mandate and that Abba is taking me through 3 distinct processes accordingly. Emerging in one area does not equate to emerging in another – and that’s ok. I can no longer afford to be ignorant of that fact… Each ministry has its own unique process and though I have lump summed them all together (because they are all me), they have in fact required (and do require) different things from me.


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I look forward to connecting with you online and in-person!

In His love always. 

Torema xXx

 

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